痛

今天，心情很糟糕很糟糕。

昨天，整理了图片的文件夹，才惊觉，原来我还保留着我们的照片。我明白，世界不会因为伤感而停下来，更不会留恋过去。所以，我选择继续逃避。



而刚刚，短短一小时，就被三个人骂。我很难受。

第一个人，是个长着眼睛，却看不到我摩多打灯，而硬硬冲上来的混蛋。他后面载着个女人，可能为了挽回面子，和看我穿着女童军制服好欺负，就赠了我很多三字真言。我不能说他没文化，因为骂粗话的确是种文化。我不喜欢，是因为对我来说，他是讲到没话讲，却又死要脸。

虽然他也只是个随便在街上遇到陌生人，但我还是很介意他骂我的那番话。面对他，我只是沉默以对，因为我知道，如果我开口，我可能会变成和他一样，在街上破口大骂的疯子。

我永远都不要沦落成这种人。



第二和第三个，都是我的老师。

"... you are a senior, I expect more from you. I won't bear the responsible if anything happens, your teacher advisor can take any action against you, I won't care ....."
这句话，刺痛了我。

“老师要你明白，我们的责任很大。你应该知道，你这样草率会带来的种种后果。这次我不会算你出席率。”
听了这句话，真的受不了了。

我承认，在事情的处理上，我的确草率了，但在那种迫不得已的情况下，我能怎么办? 因为这样，我失去社团一次出席率，而且，我没有家长信可以交，所以后果只有被纪律处分。就这样，我的课外活动分数，加分制度方面都双双受影响。我很重视这些分数，因为我的以后都靠我现在的努力。而现在，纪录花了。

我只是离开学校一下，让人签几份紧急的文件。我不是有心旷社团活动，只是迟到。 我不是出去玩，我是有苦衷的。



为什么都没有人了解?

不了情

现在
一直陪在我身边的
就是 “新不了情”

爱情不了的坚贞
很令人难忘
令人哭得难忘

不说了
我得继续
看着女主角
慢慢在癌症
的折磨下
死去


还有
我身边的很多人都生病了
包括我自己
没有上学的一天，反而令我更累
我睡太多了


5S1 的所有灾民
遇上 Siew Hoon 这种善良可爱的女人
真是我们灾难的开始
为了自己怕死的精神，她竟敢质疑我最爱的书
她竟敢质疑我们班的人没有能力阅读 400 多面的英文小说
难道我们学生素质真有那么差吗?
我只能说，她是我看过那么多英文老师，最令人失望的一个
当老师当到这种程度
浪费学生时间，又浪费自己精力，误人子弟，唉



哦，半个世界已经暗了
晚安。

踏实

今天我觉得很充实，这久违的感觉令我很踏实。

昨天很累很累，补习回来之后 7 点半就睡着了，一直到早上 4 点起来读书。没办法，责任重了。前途不止关系自己，和身边所有人也息息相关。再看到 Anthony 26 次就 SPM 了，能不紧张?

今天华文老师讲解宽恕的课文。可能我太主观，或者说是叛逆。我不太赞她的观点，可能我对宽恕有另一套看法。

她举例说
“如果你爸爸和友人航海，可是再海中央你爸爸病危，他们也没有粮食剩了。后来你爸爸死了，友人便吃你爸爸的肉。在这种迫不得已的情况下，你选择宽恕那位友人吗?”

我只能说，这种例子她也举得出。如果这种事情会发生在我身上，我到时候再回答吧。


上学是渡过时间最好的方法，就这样，半天没了。中午就是蓝队的 sukan, 是每个人都会参与的活动。那时候，就可以看到那种平时连走都会懒惰的人，竟然跑得飞起，为的就是，赢!
人其实都不复杂，只要拥有自己很想要得到的东西，就会变得不一样，是一种积极，一种拼劲。

我很高兴。我为我最爱的队伍，也是我最后一年参与的队伍，拼了一共 8 分，真的很希望今年蓝队也能稳坐全场冠军。虽然我的右手废了，但我庆幸我是真的尽力。

wal-kat-on

Walkathon was a real BORE, seriously.







Happy 90th Anniversary & Happy Thinking Day. No more celebration *like this*, please.

Walking around with big crowds *just to break record* is insignificant. Wth not fun at all.

And by the way..

bicycle is a nice transportation (;

Union u18g team in MSSPP

Lots of thanks to Samuel for the pic.
Yea, champ for u-18g category team event, no big deal.
In fact I didn't contribute much.

YEA JOAnne sucks at chess.

疯狂事件

这个部落格有着清楚及详细的纪录
琪中: 遭遇变态记

改天

如果

让我再遇到变态的话
我应该会忍不住用三字经训导他
应该… 啦，哈哈

话说从前，就在我们回到童军总部帮忙时，我看到了我人生里最恶心的老阿伯在我面前自行满足他的需要。

其实，自慰是正常的，阿伯也需要是正常的，但在大马路上上演 live show，那还算正常吗? 可能那还算是正常，但故意叫我们看就是完全不正常。

就在风和日丽的晚上，我们帮朋友完成她的 gadget。我站上梯子来绑，没办法，谁叫我矮。所以整晚的突发事件，我的眼睛受罪最多，没办法，谁叫我矮。当时我的确有点慌，毕竟第一次遇到这种情况。当时我也的确有点怕，所以慧敏也不约而同地和我有一样的想法 - 有男朋友的保护真好。可惜，在这件事发生的时候，竟然没办法在第一时间联想任何人来依靠。

我的眼睛受够了，纯洁的灵魂之窗，就这样变不纯洁。或者说，我的思想长大了，哈哈。

我以后再也不想单独在这样暗暗又有点与世隔绝的地方，虽然以我的条件还不容易引人犯罪，但还是会怕，哈哈。

True

Rules:

1. Just put your media player on shuffle.
2. Write down the song name as your answer, no matter how silly it sounds.
3. Skip the song as you finish the question.
4. Have fun.



IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY......

带我走 - Rainie Yang

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

Beautiful life - Jesse McCartney

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Wait for you - Elliot Yamin

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

Over it - Katherine McPhee

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

Everything we had - The Academy Is...

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Apologize - One Republic feat Timbaland

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Thanks for the memories - Fall Out Boy

THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

I'm here without you - Three Doors Down

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Who are they - Carter Burwell

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

That's what you get - Paramore

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Light of my life - Lee-Hom Wang & Lara Fabian

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Supermassive black hole - Muse

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Full moon - The Black Ghosts

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

I just died in your arms tonight - Faber Drive

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/ INTEREST?

Behind these hazel eyes - Kelly Clarkson

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

The way I are - Timbaland & Keri Hilson

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Who knew - Pink

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

Pocketful of sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Missing you now - Kenny G & Michael Bolton

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

True - Ryan Cabrera

The people...

Huiting is tagged
Meixhi is tagged
Mingxun is tagged
Zhaowei is tagged
Weisan is tagged
Gavin is tagged

Well, just for fun.

Rainie Yang

每次我总一个人走

交叉路口 自己生活

这次你却说带我走

某个角落 就你和我

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑

像天空缠绵雨的汹涌 在你的身后

计算的步伐 每个背影 每个场景

都有发过的梦

带我走 到遥远的以后

带走我 一个人自转的寂寞

带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕 带我走

每次我总独自远走

保持缄默 不皱眉头

这次你却说一起走

彼此温柔 从此以后

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑

像天空缠绵雨的汹涌 在你的身后

计算的步伐 每个背影 每个场景

都有发过的梦

带我走 到遥远的以后

带走我 一个人自转的寂寞

带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕 带我走

白马溜过漆黑尽头

潮汐袭来浪花颤动

凝在海岸结成了墨

蔷薇朝向草原气球

邮差传来一地彩虹

刻在心中拍打着脉搏

带我走 到遥远的以后

带走我 一个人自转的寂寞

带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕 带我走

带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由都将成为泡沫

带我走

3rd day of MSSPP'09 @ CGL

Results for u-18g category



I can't believe my eyes, cause I can't believe that their placings are such high, well, no offense. People kept asking bout the results in u-18g category, so here is it, scroll up and click for the results if you want to see in details. You happy? Maybe, but I'm definitely not. Last year of playing MSSPP, but I didn't even make it into top 6. Nightmarish dream finally repeated itself again, perhaps it was meant to go on that way. Guess I'd just accept it.

Life.

By the way,
CONGRATULATIONS to the champ GAVIN,
you did it.
Proud of you.

Random thoughts

someone
insisted that my opponents
are all lousy players o.O

someone
told me not to be stressed

someone
gave me a lot of support and courage
when I was super emo

someone
sent me messages to wish me luck

someone
asked us to beat his ex-school xD

someone
sms me every time I finished my game
just to ask for my results

someone
was disappointed
because he wasn't able to take part in MSSPP

someone
said that I can make it into MSSM

someone
believed that nightmarish dream
shall not repeat itself

But in the end of listening to so many someone,
do I really have faith in myself?
I don't know, and I never will.

Whenever there's tournament,
there's confusion.
Friendship and sympathy are not allowed
to exist in the game of chess.
So when it comes to confusion - to beat or to feed,
friendship breaks,
and hatred takes over.


That's life -
it's always too complicated.

Alright, cut the crap, hahahaha. The following is the funniest chess image I ever found. Share with you guys. The king says SPARTA! cool.

1st & 2nd day of MSSPP 2009 @ CGL

First day:

MSSPP 2009, what a bloody tournament. I know I can't escape from the fate to play against my friends. I've had enough for today, 3 rounds are quite unbearable. Tomorrow, I'm gonna get whacked by Choonyong.

This year, the tournament is held at Convent Greenlane. Hate to say that the hall has got no air con, so hot so hot. Staying in it feels like sitting in a sauna !

The first 3 rounds are all over. Hello tommorow, hello nightmare. Old seniors, old friends, old chess freaks whosoever, do come to visit (:

Second day:

Yesterday, I thought I was gonna get whacked disastrously by Choonyong, no, I wasn't. Instead, I played against Yuen Sue who is also a strong player from Pcghs. So, the nightmare of facing Choonyong hasn't come yet, but who knows if tomorrow we agree to draw if we meet up? xD

Nicholas, the one who drew with Evan Timothy Capel

XD

Huiting.

Renchi & Shaohong.

Well, as for today, the games were a mess, I lost to Yuen Sue, won Pui yee, then drew with a BJ girl, what the hell? I've got brainwashed terribly by Tkb for the agreement to draw. Fine, let bygones be bygone. Tommorow, I must chop my opponents. Who cares who they are, just get the points and proceed to national tournament xD

MSSM awaits !
says Gavin (:

Heritage walk during CNY

She's Huiting.
I'm Joanne,
and another friend of mine, Wancing.

Three of us went to a Chinese New Year celebration
(I have no idea at all what it's called)
located at Georgetown heritage zone.

A lot of Chinese traditions and works of art
were being displayed.

A very fresh exhibition to me.

The old buildings there are the main attraction,
they look just old and antique.
Penang heritage trail

I was attracted by our Chinese traditional Lion Dance,
spectacular.
They did very well, bravo.

Brilliantly illuminated.

The lanterns gave me strong CNY feel,
teehee ~
We ate a lot, crapped a lot, took pictures, talked a lot
and walked a lot.
Enjoyed (:





Ohya.
Happy chap goh mei btw (:

Ouch

I always hurt myself. Fell down suddenly when running, cut my thumb with parang, knocked my head with the car roof, or even bumped into the wall. This time, things are different. I hurt my leg with super hot exhaust pipe.

The wound hurts. It makes me feel pain and suffer when I step my leg. Ouch.

This is how it first looked like, about one week ago.







The following is the most disgusting wound
I ever seen.






It's like some kind of rotten meat mixed with
some disgusting yellowish green liquid,
topped with some dark reddish tomato sauce too.






The infected wound is going to take over a long period
to recover.
Imagine this happens to you.






The moral value of this incident,
don't get too near to exhaust pipe,
or anything that is hot.
Your skin is too weak to withstand the temperature.
Please be careful.














And now, it turns into something like this.




Again, everyone please please be careful. It really hurts.
Ouch ! tsk.

Unbearable

I found him
alive
in the depth of my soul

A. MISSING. PIECE

of my life puzzle.

I know
he's everywhere
never dies
never speaks
never leaves


I miss you
&,. I don't want to play hide-and-seek
anymore


My guardian angel
please show up

Bai Tee Gong

First of all, happy belated birthday to our Tee Gong. Yesterday was His birthday. The Hokkiens believe that Bai Tee Gong, which is a way to show some respect to the mighty God, could bring the family great fortune and prosperity in the year ahead. I honestly think that it's just a superstition that's been handed down from age to age.




Me Hokkien, so like usual, my family prepared some simple food as tributes to the God. Although playing firecrackers is strictly prohibited, I still could hear deafening noise coming from near and far, the stillness of the night was eventually replaced by children's laughter, happy to see the sparkling yet transcient fireworks in the sky. Beautiful eh.

Ever seen such a long firecraker?

I seriously don't agree with open burning, not only pollutes the environment, it also hurts my nose. I don't like the haze and dust. However I have no right to speak a word cause it's my clan's tradition and is meant to preserve.

Method of 'Golds' being transferred to the heaven.

Happy Bai Tee Gong.

A beachy day

My family and I went for a bungalow stay at somewhere in Tanjung Bungah. Chill, the beach had got no jet ski, no parachute, no foreign visitors, no cliff jumping (wth), NO hot guys doing sun bathing. Only rubbish could be seen all around the place. The bungalow was quite old and seemed like it had been emptied for a long time, kinda eerie and gloomy, goosebumps ! I didn't like the place. Not much recreation could be done. Poker was the best pastime after all.

At dusk, I got myself all wet immersing in the sea. It was sticky and cold the moment I got out of the water. Some hell idiotic people threw a broken jar into the sea and it created a beutiful wound on my knee, damn.

Tsk tsk tsk.

My bro.

Disgusting eh?

The boys then went to hunt for oysters at night. As for my, I enjoyed being alone and the best thing I could do was sleep. I took a nap at the beach. The breeze was refreshing. When the surroundings were completely dark and quiet, no light pollution at all, it was time for firecrackers. My finger, ouch.

Back to home at bout 1 o'clock. Exhasted, both legs went limp.